Idle Thoughts and Oneshots

Just realized how long it’s been since I’ve shown my Pokemon team’s progress. .o.

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Lmao you Podagee. I no get your number.

I’m sorry you all had to see that.
Times are tough, but I’ll try and man it out. At least until I can get a job and move out.
You guys can’t imagine how great it makes me feel, knowing I have you guys to try and help me, or at the very least, understanding and dealing with my rants.
I just… please, don’t try and be angry with my dad, however. What he said earlier, about me having to just let it go.. It was to try and get me to calm down; he had no idea what sort of impact it would have on me. He doesn’t like to see me upset, and he was the only one who tried to help me and encourage me through these times while my mum and brother did their own stuff. The reason he doesn’t punish my brother is because my mum is like mother lion defending her cub, and he doesn’t want to get stressed by arguing with her. And stress isn’t something he needs while he’s recovering from his treatments.

But still, thank you guys.
<3

Very very very angry rant impending.

Today, I gave my brother and his friend a ride home. They were drinking tea in the back. My cupholder is broken. I hear cans topple over and I ask if anything spilled, and they said ‘nope’.
I drop them off and go to Kalani’s house to go practice piano.
I look under my sweater, which is placed in the middle seat along with several other belongings, to get my piano binder, only to find that the sweater is soaked.
I promptly burst into tears at that point. Any other sweater, I would have just been pissed. But it’s a white sweater that Kalani silk-screened for me, and something I value very very much. I keep it in my car because if I keep it in my house, it would get dirty within a day. I look down and see that my piano binder is also dripping. I take my stuff and go into Kalani’s house and just cry from there. Auntie gave me a hair dryer to dry my sheet music while they tried to get the stains out of my sweater.
Papers are crinkled and damaged, but otherwise fine.
The sweater, on the other hand… I keep it folded in the back seats, and because it was silk-screened and got soaked, some of the words stained the white parts, smudged, etc.
It’s fine otherwise, but I’m still upset because I had managed to keep it so clean for so long.
I drove home once I started feeling a little better. I get my stuff from the trunk and then look in the backseat, and to my horror I find that my math packet is soaked and, beneath it, my textbook.
So I stormed into the house to try and save it, but once paper gets soaked, at some point it starts tearing or looking cloth-like, and by then I just… broke down.
And worst of all, my dad said, just let it go.
They don’t fucking punish my brother or anything.
This is the second damn time they did this. Last week my brother stole my car during school to buy fucking food, while it was low on gas. They didn’t do anything to punish him.
Now? Now my textbook is damaged, and it’s like 80 fucking bucks. And my dad said to just let it fucking go.
This is the third textbook we’ve had to replace because of my brother. And they don’t ground him or anything.
Yet when I do the smallest things, I get in deep shit.
This is so fucking unfair. I hate how unfair I’m being treated these days. My brother always gets priority. Money is always spent on my brother, when I’ve been refraining from shopping just to save up money for college. I get in trouble for this. I get lectured for that. He gets bigger portions of meals. I don’t get food. They spend hundreds of dollars on him for baseball equipment he already has. I can’t even buy books.
My brother steals my car— he only has his permit. —and doesn’t get punished. I drive across a parking lot with only my permit and I get yelled at.
Times like this I really can’t fucking wait to get a job and move out. Times like this I wish I could just go and crash at my god-family’s place- but knowing my fucking family I’d get in trouble for it.
I swear I just burst a fucking blood vein from the stress. I’m just so… done. I’m so over my brother. I’m so over my parents defending him.
I’m a family person, but I’m so fucking ready to move out already.

Oh hell. Maybe I should have worded that better. xD … -lazy- Oh well.

I hate how selfish my brother can be sometimes.
I seriously get little to no food in this damn house because he inhales every fucking thing. Our mum buys him yogurts and other crap to eat between meals, while I don’t have anything I can eat. So I go on eating one meal during the day max, and even then, the dinner isn’t that big because they give the bigger portions to my fat ass of a little brother. I fucking lost ten pounds! I used to weigh somewhere between 110 to 115 lb. I only weigh fucking 100lb now! Seriously what the shit.
So I ate dinner at my god-family’s house on Sunday, and since they know I starve at my house, they made a small left-over bento and gave me some snack bars to last me a couple of days. ;n; The bento was orgasmic and Kalani is my alibi.
Anyway, to the main point.. I still have those snack bars, and I even fucking put my name on the box just to prove a point to my damn family that it’s mine. But my brother still has the fucking audacity to beg me to eat a damn bar. I was literally arguing with him for ten damn minutes over fucking food! >:T My mum buys him yogurt and other sports bars and shit, and I don’t get anything, yet he still wants to eat my damn food that my god-family was kind enough to give me!
Just… FUCK. And to top it all fucking off, I have to keep picking up his friend. His friend lives in the OPPOSITE direction of the school and I don’t receive any gas money. GOD FRIGGIN LAKJDFOIJWERLKJCN

/rant. =___= Feeling a little better. I swear to god, I know how much snack bars are in that box, and if I find one fucking missing tomorrow, I’mma snap.

Almost forgot about today. xD

30 Day Video Game Challenge

Day 04 - Favorite adventure game.

Day 05 - Best Mega Drive game.
Day 06 - A game of your childhood.
Day 07 - Best Playstation 1 game.
Day 08 - The game that is currently playing.
Day 09 - Best Playstation 2 game.
Day 10 - Favorite simulation game.
Day 11 - Best PC game.
Day 12 - Favorite action game.
Day 13 - Best Nintendo 64 game.
Day 14 - An addictive game.
Day 15 - Best Xbox\360 game.
Day 16 - Favorite super heroes game.
Day 17 - Best GameBoyColor game.
Day 18 - Best Wii game.
Day 19 - A game that you never finished.
Day 20 - A game you’ve played countless times.
Day 21 - A favorite character.
Day 22 - Last game you bought.
Day 23 - Last game you downloaded.
Day 24 - Favorite platform game.
Day 25 - Favorite Internet game.
Day 26 - Favorite multiplayer game.
Day 27 - Favorite game-based on movie/comic-book/book/cartoon
Day 28 - Boss or villain most evil.
Day 29 - Worst game of all time.
Day 30 - Best game of all time.

Hrmmmmm. I don’t think I’ve really played an Adventure game that wasn’t considered Roleplaying. xD; .. But upon scanning the list, I see that there is no roleplaying challenge, sooo~ O:
I dunno, I consider Golden Sun an Adventure game, too. c’: Ffff~ Isaac~~ And Ivan. <3

30 Day Video Game Challenge

Day 03 - Best Super Nintendo game.

Day 04 - Favorite adventure game.
Day 05 - Best Mega Drive game.
Day 06 - A game of your childhood.
Day 07 - Best Playstation 1 game.
Day 08 - The game that is currently playing.
Day 09 - Best Playstation 2 game.
Day 10 - Favorite simulation game.
Day 11 - Best PC game.
Day 12 - Favorite action game.
Day 13 - Best Nintendo 64 game.
Day 14 - An addictive game.
Day 15 - Best Xbox\360 game.
Day 16 - Favorite super heroes game.
Day 17 - Best GameBoyColor game.
Day 18 - Best Wii game.
Day 19 - A game that you never finished.
Day 20 - A game you’ve played countless times.
Day 21 - A favorite character.
Day 22 - Last game you bought.
Day 23 - Last game you downloaded.
Day 24 - Favorite platform game.
Day 25 - Favorite Internet game.
Day 26 - Favorite multiplayer game.
Day 27 - Favorite game-based on movie/comic-book/book/cartoon
Day 28 - Boss or villain most evil.
Day 29 - Worst game of all time.
Day 30 - Best game of all time.

Rofl I didn’t have that much SNES games. xD That I can recall, I mean. Probably one of the Marioa games. xD

Ghost Adventures is seriously like my guilty pleasure or something. xD;
Sometimes it really scares the living shat out of me, but I can’t stop friggin watching.